17 weeks, 5 days pregnant with twins

When walking around outside in this cold winter weather, wrapped up in winter coat and scarf, I can still easily pass as not pregnant. I don't have an obvious bulge. But in a thin top pressed close to my skin you can see that I am pregnant now. (I am very proud of this!)

I look at my stomach every night when I get ready for bed and I imagine the babies in there... I am in awe of nature and what's going on inside me. I just think it's such a miracle, and so special... and then I starting thinking how can we be this lucky?? How can it continue to to be ok...? And then I tell myself to stop thinking negative things. etc etc and this inner dialogue/argument starts up between pesimism and optimism..